Saturday, October 16, 2010

除了對自己的意義,我還想要什麼? It is meaningful to myself but what else do I want?


大學同學問我,這樣的一個婚禮,是希望大家重視多愛自己的概念,
但你覺得一場婚禮能感染多少人?

“This wedding is trying to tell others to love themselves,
but how many people do you think they can be influenced through this wedding?”
A friend from the university asked me.

在工作上,我總是積極去完成自己要求的目標,但對於理念和想做的事情,
量化的答案,從來不是我認為最重要的部分。

I am very aggressive to hit my personal target at my work but for my belief and the things I want to do I never think “quantity” is the key part.

念了性別研究所,有許多別人問我,念這個以後要做什麼?
我總是告訴別人,對我而言,性別意識和概念,是落實在生活和生命之中,
不一定會改變對方原有的觀念和想法,
但至少會多一個新的想像或思考空間。
然後,也許這個人會再和他的朋友討論,這又是一個機會和可能性。

Many people asked me what do you want to do after your “gender studies”?
I always told others gender concepts and ideology is for practicing in the living life.
I may not be able to change others’ original ideas and thoughts but maybe there is one more new image or thinking way for the person.
Then the person may discuss with his friends about it. Again it is another opportunity and possibility.

面對這個婚禮,我也是這樣的心情,對我自己有特殊的意義,
但同時我也希望,對他者能有一些意義,而每一個他者的意義,
如果都能變成一個美好的生命故事,我想這樣就足夠了。(這和我畢業論文的結語真像)

I have the same feeling about this wedding.
It is certain meaning to me and at the same time I hope it is some meaning for others and it might become a lovely story in their life.
I think it is enough. (It is so like what I wrote on the ending page of my dissertation)

一位世新的學姐和我分享,
他一直覺得每個人心中都有一個完美情人的想像,
但更多時間也許是自己對自己的投射,
而我把這樣的內心戲具體化了。
也許我的確在18歲的時候,把我的30歲幻想得太美好了,
所以很愛我的30歲,然後才想和自己結婚。

A senior classmate from SHU shared it with me, she thought there is a perfect lover idol in the mind but most time it is a self reflection most time.
And I make it to the reality.
I think maybe indeed I imaged my 30 life is more than beautiful and therefore I am in love with my 30.
Then it makes I want to marry myself.



It is the wedding ring! 這是婚戒唷!!!(拍攝BY王芯)

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  1. 嗨~我想私底下跟妳談一些事情,可以方便寄mail給妳嗎?

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